Notes From Annapolis, February 2014

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1. Practice heart centering meditation, or variation there-of, every day. Keep working to stabilize the heart center as home base. Begin by palpating sternum/skin/fluids to find physical heart. Trace sensation inward to the space around the heart.

2. Practice the Dan Siegel ‘Wheel of Awareness’ meditation. In this meditation exploration, we use the wheel as a visual metaphor of the mind. Around the rim of the wheel are located the various information streams that feed the brain. Unknown-3-1These  include the five outer senses:  sight, hearing, taste, smell and touch: the inner senses of kinesthesia which feeds information from the muscles, bones and joints about location and movement: and proprioception, where we feel the motility or inner movements from the organs and fluids, driven by breathing, the heart beat, peristalsis and the cranio-sacral rhythms: our emotional energies percolating up from the cells and organs; and the cognitive (word based) energies including the ‘monkey mind’. These sources stream to the hub along the ‘spokes’ and we use the hub to locate ‘awareness’. (Warning! All metaphors are limited. Useful but limited. Awareness is not confined by space or time.)

From the ‘hub’ of awareness, we direct our attention out the various ‘spokes’ to observe what is arising. We may notice the the process of ‘attention’ has a mind of its own and may jump from one spoke to another. Our discipline, (abhyasa), is to help stabilize attention, by bringing it to a specific spoke (dharana), keeping it there with some mindful effort (dhyana), and eventually having this become effortless (samadhi). Also we can cultivate a flexible attention that we can use efficiently as we take in the world without being ‘distracted’ by random sensations or thoughts.

In the ‘wheel of awareness’, we go back and forth, from the ‘hub of awareness’ to the various modalities out on the rim. What is most helpful is to really rest in the hub in between trips to the rim. Here awareness rest in itself. Awareness, not needing any information/objects of attention to sustain it, is still, open, unbounded by space and time. Patanjali call this drashtuh svarupe’ the seer resting it its own inherent nature, and uses this to describe the result of yoga. (PYS, I-3). Eckhart Tolle use the term ‘Now’. Atman, Brahman, Presence, Primordial Being are some other ‘pointing’ words. You can also use your open heart as the silent center.

By resting in awareness, we learn to not be so reactive to what arises, so we begin to tease apart the many layers of reactivity that comprise the ‘vrttis’ Patanjali describes in the Samadhi Pada. We see the ephemeral nature of thoughts, beliefs, ideas, sensations and slowly disentangle our ‘self-sense’ from this transient world.

In a somatic based practice like hatha yoga, the information streams coming from the body/mind are cultivated, studied and refined. We learn to feel our way through the body and allow the wisdom of the body to reveal itself moment to moment. Most yoga students begin with the mind telling the body what to do because they have never been taught how to feel, how to listen to the body. As teachers we need to help the students develop the confidence to trust what they feel and to not be afraid of sensations that are less than pleasant. Those sensations are our teachers.

3. Recognize and actualize the three levels of practice, related to the three bodies (gross, subtle and causal), as structure, energy/sound and light/cosmic fields.

4. In asana, awaken structure through the energy lines and circles. Structure involves the physical mass of the body, in movement and stillness. The study of anatomy and kinesiology, the physics of leverage, and anatomical alignment will help awaken this level of practice as you explore the moving energy in various yoga postures and sequences. Remember coiling and uncoiling. In embryology, the circle transforms into a tube, which then coils in on itself. To open the body, we must uncoil from the inside, flexion releasing into extension and then be able to return, extension releasing into flexion. This true for organs, spine and limbs.

Cultivating the energy lines and fields is as easy as 1-2-3. ONE heart / one mind. From your heart, as center, find the sphere of energy that always surrounds and supports you. It can pulsate, radiate or feel relatively stable. Then, find your core line or central axis of the body radiating in TWO opposite directions, feeling it extending through crown and root chakras, connecting all chakras, into heaven and earth. Use the inner heels to awaken tail lines. (see ardha chandrasana below) Maintain the sphere and core line dynamically throughout all of the poses and life embodying the THREE spacial dimensions. These can now become three axes of movement around the hip joints, and our postures can be seen to be organized around these. Master the simple movements as the core practice.

5. The first and most basic is saggital flexion and extension, or, in yoga terminology, forward bending and back bending. This is the fundamental movement pattern of mammals, from cats and dogs to whales and dolphins. Healthy action here requires clear and free movement of the pelvic bones over the femur heads and a long free imaginary tail to balance the spinal column. Planes-Axes-of-Movement(See dogs below if an image is needed.) When there is compromised movement through the hip joints, the lower back and knees (as well as everywhere else!) will suffer the consequences. The human body, starting in tadasana, has far more flexion available than extension. The best leverage to explore forward bending is from standing because, unlike in sitting, the pelvis can move through space.

In a simple forward bend like uttanasana, stay grounding through the legs and grow your self a tail. Bird tail, cat tail, dinosaur tail, anyone will do. Make it as long as possible. The root chakra has three limbs that can and need to be activated in energy flow; right and left legs and the tail. In tadasana, the three root limbs all elongate downward, but to begin uttasana, or any other forward bending pose, the tail energy initiates the action by moving in a circle, back along the floor and then reaching into space. This allows the pelvis to move freely without contracting any spinal muscles or collapsing the organ tree at the front of the body. With your long ‘imaginary tail’, your sacrum is now the center or fulcrum of the movement and thus can let go of any unnecessary holding. Returning to tadasana reverses the action. Practice moving slowly in and out to get a feel of the three energies, keeping them flowing. “Trifurcating the mula” is a key energy awakening that we can learn here. Later we will learn how to engage the inner heels to help activate and reinforce the tail energy.

In backbending,we can use the supine positions like sphinx images-2where gravity helps release the anterior lumbar. Activate the tail by pushing your hips back and up over your feet, like a mini dog pose, keeping the knees on the floor.

Leave the tail long and return back to sphinx by lengthening in an arc through the crown. Difficulty can be added by bringing the arms to cobra or up dog, or by taking the shins up the wall.

The famous Barcelonan architect, Antoni Gaudi, studied the math and physics of arches by hanging cables and strings and observing how gravity gives shape to the curves. Same in backbends. Once we feel how gravity opens and lengthens the spine in poses like the sphinx and dhanurasana, then, when we do reverse backbends like urdhva dhanurasanaUnknown-5, (or triang mukkhottanasana), we have a sense of when there is space and when we are compressing the spine. Notice the use of vectors and leg energy in eka pada images-3viparita dandasana. In both poses, notice the exceptional evenness of the curve on the front body. This is how to read backbends.

The second pattern of movement is lateral flexion and extension or fish body, where you rotate in the frontal plane. Fish, reptiles and amphibians move with this action and it is mostly spinal. As there is far less movement available here for the hip joints than the other two planes, yogis adjust the feet to create trikonasana, parsvakonasana, ardha chandrasana Unknown-3and other side bending poses, and use this unique leverage to more deeply open the hip joints. Because lateral flexion is also available in the spinal column, and we do want to encourage freedom here, it is important to differentiate lateral freedom versus lateral collapse. In the trikonasana series, when the hips reach their limit of movement, do not just cave in sideways with the spine. Notice Iyengar’s before and after (69 years!) trikonasanas.

If you use the wall for support, a beginning student can learn a lot about free movement in the hips by slowly moving in and out of ardha chandrasana, images-8keeping the standing leg grounding in slight flexion and the extension through the inner back heel. Slow movements establish a sattvic energy flow and prevent “holding on” rajasic, or “hanging out” tamasic energies. Eventually, staying in the pose comes from open flow throughout the body, extending in all directions. Also, here, and in one legged dog, we can feel how the inner back heel is intimately connected to the tail energy. When we come back to trikonasana, we can use an extending energy through the inner back heel to be the major mover of the energy, like a skier using their edges going around a slalom gate.

The final pelvic action is rotation around the transverse plane and vertical axis of the body, known as twisting. How we place and use the feet has a huge effect upon the capacity to actually mobilize rotation in the hips. Revolved ardha chandrasana is the best at zeroing in on rotation because you can do each hip independently. Also, if you see the lines of energy in Venus (on her backhand) and Rafa (on his forehand)  as they extend in opposite directions through space, back leg balancing front arm, and orient beyond their bodies, you can have a feel for the dynamism and aliveness possible in the pose.UnknownIf we choose to ‘stay’ in a posture for many breaths, there should be this quality dynamism along with an ease in moving in and out along the spinal axis, from head to tail (or hands to feet).

6. Once we have a feel for the three planes, trifurcating the mula (adding a tail to the legs) and opposite action, we can take this awareness into ‘one legged dog pose’images-4 and onto hand stand and head stand. Keep extending through the inner heels and tail as the rooting energy is now creating lift. This is the foundation for the safe practice of all inversions.

To learn a safe way to sarvangasana, begin with viparita karani and supported bridge pose to create opening to the organs and throat. Unknown-6Too many students block the throat chakra thinking they are doing jalandhara bandha.

5. The subtle body is energy, aka prana, chi, qi, or ki. Fundamentally it is sound, vibration, as all life is music. As beginners, we explore the breathing process and simple movements, where there is an oscillation between two poles (moving in and out of a pose) and a middle or fulcrum that is ever still. In time we begin to experience a deeper sense of the motility of the body, that is, all of the movements of physiology and especially the four major rhythms. Respiration is first and is felt in the tissues throughout the body, not just in the belly or chest. The heartbeat and the circulatory pulsation is the second, peristalsis and the rhythmic undulations of the gut body from mouth to anus is third. Finallly the cranio-sacral movements will bring us into our embryological origins and primal movements of our aliveness.

In addition to exploring the breathing movements, beginning students can also play with sound. Vowel sounds send patterns of energy through the body, fluids and structures, and can give us feedback on where we are holding tension. Being able to feel and create sounds is very therapeutic for all. Then mantras, chanting and bhajans or sacred songs can be explored, for the sheer joy of chanting, but also as a way to feel more deeply into the realm and intelligence of sound.

Emilie Conrad’s ‘Hu Breath, which we played with Sunday, combines the respiratory and peristaltic rhythms with sound to mobilize the fluid body, dissolve patterns of tension, and awaken the inner realms of aliveness. Like a dog panting, or laughing/crying, a rhythm is generated and then explored by micro changes in face, diaphragm, ribs, and anywhere that is free to move.

Unknown-7And always return to the center of the heart and the ever present stillness. Rest there, and remember stillness is not the absence of movement, but your natural state independent of all that is going on within you and without you.

The Sinoatrial Node

When I first discovered Charles Ridley’s book “Stillness: Biodynamic Cranial Sacral Practice and the Evolution of Consciousness, stillness coverthere was an amazing flash of insight awakened after reading just a few pages. Here was an articulate presentation of a very subtle and yet highly embodied wisdom that I knew in the depths of my sixth chakra to be true, but had not quite been able perceive or experience. These were cosmic clues on the great treasure hunt of embodied awakening waiting to be explored.

This was six years ago and now some of Charles’s insights are finally emerging in my own living matrix as sensations, perceptions and clarity. I am not a cranial sacral practitioner but I do swim through the inner waters of my being and find Charles’ maps incredibly relevant for us yoga/somanauts. This brings us to a fascinating place in the body, the sinoatrial node. This natural pacemaker, a bundle of neurons surrounded by connective tissue in the form of collagen fibers and fibroblasts, sits at the upper back portion of the right atrium near the superior vena cava.

Those of you who have been following along in the Tuesday class know we have been exploring the  the inferior vena cava and the connective tissue structures surrounding it, Unknown-1as it comes up from behind the liver and enters the heart, while also tracking the pressure gradient from the lower dantian (belly) up into the chest cavity. By following the blood vessels, we can bypass the diaphragm, which tends to divide our sense of the torso into upper and lower. As the lower dantian energy, in the form of pressure, is trained to rise up, it lifts, stretches and opens the diaphragm and expands the chest cavity from the inside. This creates more space for the heart.

The superior vena cava, bringing de-oxygenated blood down from the head neck and arms empties, along with the inferior vena cava, into the right atrium. Here the descending and ascending energies of the venous system meet right at the SA node. How delightful. According the Charles, (and this is a lot to take in, but give it a go);

“…embryogenesis is the power for transmutation….Biodyamically speaking, this act infuses the life-giving radiance from the heart field into the inertial patterns and transmutes it into a healthy state. … Non dual awareness is the stage upon which transmutation acts out its mysterious drama in full consciousness. The fulcrum or center of this stage is your hearts pacemaker, or sinoatrial node, where infinite stillness and finite form unite.”

The sinoatrial node, surrounded by collagen and fibroblasts, is the center of the connective tissue intelligence. Living here in sensitivity is a major goal of awakening in the world of form. As we trace perception and the energy fields and charges along the connective tissue pathways, we are also returning to our embryological origins and reawakening a primal intelligence that permeates all life forms. Resting in the silence of the heart is a beautiful thing. Feeling the origins of integration in the embryological pathways allows a deep settling of all unnecessary fear and anxiety into the vast ocean of stillness. This is ‘sthira sukham asanam’, the drashtuh sva’rupe , spoken of by Patanjali. This is the non-dual integration of form and formless in direct experience. We need patience and persistence to awaken the intelligence of these tissues as these sensitivities tend to be subtle or hidden in the beginning. But they are the ‘core’ of the body and, as such, carry information to every cell in the body, integrating nervous system, circulatory system and the gut tube.

images-3Feel the heart as the center of all action and perception. Open the main channel through the chakras, through crown and root, connecting heaven and earth. Trace to centers of hands and feet. From feet follow Tom Myer’s “deep front line” to liver and heart activating with a charge of energy like you are charging a smart phone. Feel the link to the sa node. Drop into stillness. repeat… forever…

So Young, and yet Awake!!!

I love this! Thanks to old friend Dana Zed for introducing me to Bentinho Massaro, who is probably in his late 20’s. Way ahead of where I was at his age. Of course the real tests will arise if he becomes ‘popular’. And ‘teaching’ awakening brings another set of challenges. But, hey, more power to him. Go Bentinho! Tell it like it is! This comes straight from his web site, free-awareness.com. Please visit.

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How Free Awareness Came About:

Biography

I started seeking actively for (as I called it then) ‘Enlightenment,’Self-Realization’ or ‘True Knowing’ around the age of 16. I was driven by an intense desire to know the source of life, for as far as that would ever be humanly possible.

I one day figured that all this dancing around that I was doing, all these everyday things I was chasing after and exploring, were meaningless and powerless if I didn’t know the true meaning of life in my own direct experience. I had this instinctual impulse to get to the source of everything, to attain some kind of mastery over myself and all my abilities, to acquire a deep knowing in which all else would be understood immediately and in its proper place.

In other words: I desired to find ‘the truth that doesn’t change’, so that I could make sense out of everything else from that space of clarity.

Before this moment of really wanting to know the source of my being arose, I had already been playing around a bit with discovering the hidden capabilities of our minds. As a child my parents offered me to follow a Silva Mind Control course, which was basically an introduction to meditation and using the mind’s full potential. Throughout high school I forgot a bit about the passion I felt for that  mystery of life, but at some point, as described above, I was fed up with the uselessness of learning and doing common things that don’t really seem to make a difference or provide anyone with much meaning.

Everyone just seemed to blindly follow the laid out paths of the societal system. Nobody seemed to ask any meaningful questions. I desired to break free from that cycle and discover truth, or at least something of existential meaning, for myself.

The Journey & The Desire to Share

I’m not sure where to begin without turning this into a fuzzy book, so I will try to keep it concise and extract from my ‘seeking-history’ that which seems to have led most obviously towards developing Free Awareness.

I was pretty intense in my seeking. Even though I lacked discipline to really concentrate on practices that didn’t feel right to me, I was intense and persistent at finding an effective way to whatever it was I was looking for. I wanted to know the truth directly, as quickly as possible, without all the whistles and bells.

So I tried meditation, yoga, reiki, NLP, EFT, Personal Development, Self-Hypnosis, Affirmations, Transformations, reading plenty of ‘spiritual’ books, on how to journey, how to awaken, how to be in the now, etc. I went on searching and discovering myself in India, met many teachers and teachings there as well, discovered I had the ability to be completely depressed, scared like a hopeless little kid in a pond full of alligators, completely lifeless, unmotivated to do anything whatsoever, “For what’s the point in doing anything?? Nothing ever works anyway!” – and what not.

From the very beginning and throughout all this seeking and the experiences that came with that seeking, a desire arose and developed to create something efficient for the rest of the world. Something that would actually make sense and be accessible to everyone, regardless of background or interest.  I noticed that my mind started to dissect  and ‘order’ everything it could get its hands on in order to compile a most effective ‘structure’.

Every book, course, teaching and teacher that I came in contact with, got analyzed, compared to the rest of my knowledge, and tested for a while. My mind was insanely fierce and active about trying to figure out ‘the best way’ and trying to sort out what was true and what was false.  I was intellectually ‘mapping’ everything and tried to fit every piece of the puzzle in there in it’s correct place. I wanted to  get the whole picture, and find a way that would actually work directly, quickly, efficiently. Preferably for everyone!

After a while it developed into this insanely complex, conceptually accurate, but intensely burdening  mental understanding. At the same time, though, there was a natural depth I could intuit. Something that remained stable throughout all my seeking and all the experiences. There was some innate knowing going on all the while. Sometimes this became more apparent then at other times, but it was always there ‘in the background’.

I remember vividly realizing one day that I always felt much more in tune with this deep sense of peace before I walked into a meditation class or teaching, than I was while on the cushion or while listening to complex theories of different levels of spiritual evolution or personal development.

Gradually I noticed how no matter what I did, heard or achieved, I always arrived back at where I always was anyway. Like the famous saying goes: “Wherever you go, there you are.”

This started to become more palpable and for a while it resulted in a conflicted state: “Should I trust this natural presence, or should I trust in these teachers and in this insane conceptual understanding that I’ve gathered in my mind that tells me to achieve all kinds of states and experiences?”

A Shift of Allegiance

The moment I started to trust more in this natural presence, something happened. Most of all I became more at ease by the day, and additionally books and teachers of a more direct nature started to cross my path that ‘confirmed’ the way of direct trust in what’s naturally here. Each of these books and teachers still got analyzed and mapped automatically, but simultaneously they helped me to let go more and more of that intellectual structure that was still very active and convincing at times.

Ever since my allegiance shifted from ‘thinking’ and ‘other teachers’ towards trusting in this intuitive sense of natural presence, that simple and always already present awareness has become more and more obvious in this experience.

This natural presence reveals the unity beyond all ideas and concepts and there is nothing that ever affects it. It’s completely stable, ever-present and unchanging awareness. Yet it is not ‘out of this world’ or ‘detached’ in any way. In fact, it allows us to be completely engaged in life, for the first time really, without fear for our thoughts and emotions or those of others. There is a loving freedom present in and as every experience, without exception.

Experiences come and go, but they all come and go within that which is effortlessly aware of them. When this awareness becomes obvious to us, than not only is it discovered to be unaffected by whatever appears within awareness, but the unity of experiences and awareness is gradually (or suddenly) revealed.

This then neutralizes the power that experiences seemed to have over us, and there arises a natural freedom, love, wisdom and joy in the midst of every experience.

With Free Awareness, I hope to be able to provide some sort of simple and accessible structure, that can support you in directly awakening to that which is already wide awake at all times.

With gratitude and love to Life itself, in all of it’s self-benefiting appearances,

Bentinho Massaro.