Creativity, Conflict and Resolution

Posted on August 4, 2015 by admin

The spiritual journey is as easy as 1,2,3. In theory anyway.
Part 1: Discover the problem.
Part 2: Come up with a creative solution and resolve the problem.
Part 3: Reap the benefits.

1. I am asleep to my true nature.
2. Find an awakened teacher who does not share my shadows.
3. Wake up myself and live life fully!

To live fully essentially means that you will continue to uncover challenges, conflict and trauma, you will again and again utilize the wisdom of the awakened mind, and you will continue to be a creative contributor to the Cosmic unfolding.

This three step process can be found in many forms, including at the beginning of The Yoga Sutras, although Patanjali changes the order slightly.
I-4: vrtti sarupyam itaratra:
(The problem is ) identifying with dysfunctional ideas about myself.
I-2: citta vritti nirodha.
“yoga (the creative solution) is resolving the dysfunctionality arising in the mind field.”
I-3 Tada drashtuh svarupe avasthanam.
“(When mental conflict is resolved), ever-present Being reveals itself effortlessly.”

Nirodha is often translated as ‘stopping’ or negating, but those English words do not capture the energetic alchemy of the mind field Patanjali’s ‘creative resolution’ describes. This yoga is not empty-minded, but rather is the vital, energized, dynamic aliveness present in an awakened mind. Or to use a slightly different wording, when the light of the soul shines unobscured, it can evoke creative responses to the slings and arrows of outrageous fortune that befall us.

The light of the soul is ever-present, unbounded and infinite. It does not appear as the result of eliminating conflict. It is unchanged whether the mind is conflicted or not. What the yoga alchemy does is to liberate, or ‘unstick’ some of the mental energy stuck in dysfunctional identification and point it to the soul. This is the beginning of the awakening and the birth of creativity. This process is like raising children. It requires nurturing, patience and deep trust in the mystery of Being.

How can we begin to resolve our own conflicts and trauma, connect with this ‘inner light’ and discover our own unique and infinite source of creativity? As somanauts, how can we use our practice on the mat to embody this process and integrate it into our moment to moment existence off the mat? How can we get unstuck and find freedom and creativity?

We are going to call on an old friend to help us look more deeply into the notions of creativity, conflict, and the alchemy of yoga described by Patanjali. Ron Alexander, author of “Wise Mind, Open Mind” will offer insights from his book on the role of mindfulness and his own ‘three step’ program in awakening to the soul, and evoking our inherent creativity to transform conflict and trauma into positive action in the world. (Ron and I went to high school together; Braintree High, class of 1968, Go Wamps!, and Kate and I had a lovely dinner with Ron and some friends the other night in LA.)

Before Ron became a psychotherapist, he was a musician, and thus had an intimate understanding of the artistic mind and the nature of creativity. He became involved in yoga and meditation practices in college and thus began a life long exploration of the body/mind/spirit connection. When he began his therapy practice in LA, he came into contact with actors, musicians and artists who were struggling with the usual human issues of loss, anxiety, and other emotional traumas, and thus were often ‘stuck’ in their lives. Realizing that he could ‘speak their language’ and could use that as way to begin helping them get ‘unstuck’, he used his experience and training to create the three step process described in his book. Anyone could use this process to help resolve the stagnation and reawaken the flow of creative juice and he based it upon the ‘simple’ practice of mindfulness.

Mindfulness is a word that points to the art of being ‘present to’, or ‘aware of’, whatever is arising in consciousness, on a moment to moment basis. It involves a ‘meta’ level of attention because there is a distancing or separation from the particulars of what is appearing in the mind field and a conscious choice to not get lost, entangled, or stuck in their stories. It’s power lies in the capacity to observe ones thoughts, ideas, beliefs, and ongoing commentary from a place, or a mental space, of open curiosity. As the mindfulness becomes ‘stronger’ through practice (hello Hebb’s Axiom), the capacity to see conflict and trauma from a distance awakens.

We are all subject to conflict and trauma. The teachings of Buddhism begin with acknowledging that life will bring dukkha, usually translated as suffering. Dukkha literally means to be stuck. The wheel of life stops flowing through you, or if it does flow, it is not smooth, but jarring and unpleasant. This is universal. Mindfulness is stepping back and noticing. Wow, I am stuck. I am suffering. From the open mind this may actually become ‘something is stuck’, suffering is happening and it is very unpleasant, or worse.

Dr. Ron’s first step, once established in mindfulness, is ” Let Go”. “The art of creative transformation begins with the willingness to be mindful of your hidden resistance, examine it, and break it down so that you can sweep it away like sand on a door stop.” When we resist what is unpleasant, we reflexively contract. We become gluey and dense, on every level of existence. As somanauts, we can find tension in the skin, muscles, fascia, fluids and organs. In our ‘samyama in asana‘ we use gravity, leverage, subtle movement, breath and intelligence to transform this holding and tension into freedom. We learn how to support the body in letting go.

Stuckness can arise in life situations as well. “If all signs point to the need for change, it’s important not to deny them and cling to the status quo even as it is slipping away.” These moments can arise in relationships, jobs and even with spiritual teachers and spiritual communities.

Ultimately, what we are letting go of are our dysfunctional ideas and beliefs that perpetuate our own stuck-ness. These all stem from feelings of inadequacy because we have lost sight of the light of the soul. Inadequacy can lead to feeling small and unworthy, burdened with negative self commentary. It can create an exaggerated sense of self importance and entitlement. Or inadequacy spawns a helplessness that needs to continually impose its will on the world to feel safe. When mindful attention allows us to see the futility of these beliefs and patterns of behavior, and the problems they inevitably create, we can begin to release them, to stop feeding them with energy.

This intuitively arrives at Ron Dass’s second step, ‘Tune In’. “The second step in the creative process is tuning in and listening to the wisdom of your soul by achieving open mind, the state in which core creativity takes place, beyond the limitations of the mind’s thought process. Whenever you reconnect to this core, authentic self through open mind, the temporary circumstances of life stop distracting you. You’re able to trust that the creative process will produce opportunities and possibilities in due time. You don’t find yourself feeling that you’re running out of time and must make a decision quickly.”

The ‘open mind’ Ron mentions, developed in a strong mindfulness practice, is also the foundation of our somatic explorations. Somanauts learn quickly that thought is useless in the deeper levels of cellular inquiry. Something else, something unknown, mysterious and vibrant, must emerge. In yoga terms, the soul is the vehicle of the prana shakti, the Divine Feminine, as it emerges into atoms, cells, organs and fluids. As B.K.S. Iyengar frequently noticed, asana is prayer, an invitation for the Divine to emerge as aliveness. This is the soul. Ron adds: “The soul, which recognizes its connection to the divine and to eternity, is quite different from your false, external self, the part of yourself that identifies with the temporary world of your senses.” This is the identity problem described by Patanjali in I-4. This false self keeps throwing dysfunctional road blocks in our way, but when we can step back and watch this phenomenon in action, and then let the inner light trigger creative imagination, we are unstuck, we are back in the flow of Divine imagination and creativity.

Then step three arises: ‘Move Forward’. “Accepting that discomfort and suffering are a natural part of life, you’ll understand that happiness ebbs and flows, and that you can’t be a Zen master at all times. You’ll never be able to fully eradicate the little voice in your head that harshly judges you with thoughts such as “You’re no good” or You’ll never succeed.” In many ways, this voice is like an undertow in the ocean, trying to pull you out to sea and away from what you want. To be successful at surging forward, you have to learn not to be sucked into the undertow.” Practice and discipline become part of your life, like eating and breathing. A confidence arises that is not artificial, but stems from a deep connection to the soul level, where you and the Cosmos are surfing the moment to moment waves of creation. Everything is exactly what it is. Your life continues to unfold.

Here is an opportunity to evoke your Divine imagination, and because Bonnie is coming to Santa Barbara in February to do more explorations in embryology, we will imagine that the spinal discs dissolve into fluid and/or light and then we will bring back the nucleus pulposi, one per disc, as a string of luminescent pearls. These are the remnants of the original notochord, a crucial component to embryological development.

Start simple with one of the large lumbar discs. I’m in a serious supported bridge pose phase and this is a fun place to play with this. find a balance across the block and float the lumbar vertebrae. With a balance of double action, zero in on the disc and find its center. Feel fluid vibrancy. Let the center of the disc emerge as a pearl of light. Link it to the one above and below so you begin to create a strand. I can get one or two, but T12 keeps disturbing the vibes when I try to link in the thoracic discs. T12 is my spinous undertow and muse. It wants to suck me back into the past, but also invites me to find a new and more creative future. As long as I stay open to my soul, no worries. An who knows what surprises will arise when the discs become luminous?

Holos: The Nine Limbed Torus

Posted on July 27, 2015 by admin

In our on going explorations in embodying Sacred Geometry, we continually cycle back to the torus, and the corresponding torroidal field, one of the primary patterns of cosmic creation. It is time to add a whole new level of torroidal intelligence to our somatic journey, and to do so, we will bring in my ‘across the street in Ojai’ neighbor Brian Berman, and what he is calling a HOLOS, a symbol for one humanity.

Brian, a spiritually awakened sculptor and peace activist, had an inspirational vision in 2012. It began as the illusion of his separate self dissolving into wholeness, emptiness and deep silence. Only Being/Knowing. Then a thought arose as a spark on energy that then dissolved back into the silence. Then another. Forms coming and going. Then, an image of a torus appeared, emerging from his heart as strands of energy spiraling out from stillness, and then spiraling back into the infinite stillness at the core of his heart. He recognized at once that the torus was a symbol of unity, of many linked as one, rooted in the infinite. From his many years as a peace activist, he realized the possibility of using this image as an international unifying symbol for all engaged in bringing peace to the world. And it did not hurt that, while on a 2014 pilgrimage to Ramana Maharshi’s ashram in Tiruvannamalai, India inquiring about using art in a spiritual way, he got a clear ‘bring this into the world’ message.

The center of the Holos represents the infinite, wholeness, stillness and silence, the Source of all creation. The nine spirals represent the emergence of any and all forms, from atoms to galaxies, and everything in between. Think of the holos as a three dimensional expression of the pranavah, the sacred syllable ‘OM’. The nine spirals can be seen as linking three equilateral triangles, each of the 9 apices being 40 degrees apart on the circle. Nine is composed of a trinity of trinities. According to Michael Schneider in ‘The Beginners’ Guide to Constructing the Universe” “nine is considered thrice sacred and most holy, representing perfection, balance and order, the supreme superlative.”

We are going to take this unique torus and use it to help clear out the chakras and invite it to provide an organizing intelligence for the water and collagen molecules in the Living Matrix of the body. Finding and differentiating the nine strands may take a while, but we are all in this for the long haul, so be patient. Consider this like the Vajrayana Buddhist practice of mandala visualization meditation. Much to be revealed in the future as we play with this!

In any comfortable sitting pose, align yourself with heaven and earth and bring your attention to your heart center. Feel the spherical volume, above/below, front/back, right/left, alive, fluid, spacious. Now convert the sphere to a torus, opening the center like in a bagel, so now the center is emptiness. Stay open to heaven and earth and stillness and begin to notice how the tissue in the heart region is responding. In the holos, ascending energies move clockwise and descending energies move counterclockwise. Let the field and your imagination do the work. Try not to help muscularly. Find where your energy field is weak or distorted, or overworking. (My right posterior quadrant is challenged). Now imagine the limbs differentiating, lengthening or spiraling to help create space. Visualize the empty space between the solid limbs of the holos. Feel it from above and below as in the very top picture. Try moving it around; up and down, right and left, forward and backward. What does this do to your feeling?

If we combine the holos with a hoberman sphere, we can expand and condense both the empty center space, as well as the nine spiraling lines, in a gyroscope like action. This action really awakens new possibilities in the holos. Feel how the centrifugal expansion increase space between the lines as they rotate outward. Feel the spirals rippling through the fluids and tissues as the chakra line stabilizes. Same with condensing centripetal action. For most of us, the heart space (prana vayu) needs more expanding and the belly space (apana) needs more condensing.

The well known sacred geometer extraordinaire, B.K.S. Iyengar, (how many different triangles can you find in this trikonasana?) describes this phenomenon in “Light on the Yoga Sutras of Patanjali”, in his commentary to sutra II-46: “Conative action is the exertion of the organs of action. Cognitive action is the perception of the results of that action. When the two are fused together, the discriminative faculty of the mind acts to guide the organs of action and perception to perform the asans more correctly; the rhythmic flow of energy and awareness is experienced evenly and without interruption, both centripetally and centrifugally throughout the channels of the body. A pure state of joy is felt in the cells and the mind. (For a deeper discussion of this, see Samyama in Asana.)

The holos field is a fractal, so it can be found all over the body. Imagine it to help to open any place that feels restricted. Take it into your limbs, head and tail until it finds its place. The center is always stillness and the energies emerge and dissolve again and again, moment to moment, day by day. Take time to help the larger field and the mini fields also, stabilize. Find the patterns in any pose, at any time. Let them settle and stabilize. No hurry, no worries.

Differentiating the Lower 2 Chakras

Posted on July 13, 2015 by admin

As we continue to rest in stillness, while the universe flows through us, in the on going stream of karma and creativity, we somatic explorers can also use the yoga postures to help with the flossing the chakras, creating a more clear channel for the light. Always cycling through the heart, the energies of the asanas can be very helpful in both differentiating and integrating the various modes of energy associated with each of the seven main chakras, allowing our creativity to unfold and flower at more and more interesting levels.

For most modern humans with a confused upright posture, the bottom two chakras are squashed together with almost no differentiation. We will use our supported bridge pose to begin the process of opening space between them and developing a sense of fluid differentiated movement. Then we will integrate this opening and new sense of space into our play in the rest of the standing poses, and then all the rest of the poses in your repertoire. The water element makes for very juicy yoga!

Structurally, the pelvic bones are the first and most obvious link, as they connect with the femurs to form the hip joints, powerful 1st chakra centers, and also with the sacrum at the sacro-illiac joints to motivate the 2nd chakra. As you can see above, there are numerous nerves, ligaments and muscle fibers here, so this is very dynamic space. There is another hidden link, the elusive joint between the sacrum and the coccyx, much more obvious in animals with a larger tail. For most, the L5 – S1 joint, where the sacrum connects to the lower lumbar, is hypermobile, leading to excess movement and injury here. If you can ‘stabilze L5 – S1, and mobilize the sacral-coccyx joint, you will have very different spianl experience! Your imaginary tail will make this link more accessible, and this will help open up the center channel with what we will call a bit later ‘lateral space’.

One observation we can make, before we go further, is that chakra 1 represents the element earth and stability, while chakra 2 represents the element water and mobility. As students of asana, sthira sukham asanam comes immediately to mind. If we can find the dynamic balance of stability and mobility through the structures and energy fields of the two lower chakras, we have the perfect foundation for all subsequent movement needs. Eric Franklin’s very helpful book, “Pelvic Power” is full of great imagery, exercises and education. I love the fountain!

A second observation is that one can be very integrated in structure and movement down there and still be emotionally dysfunctional. There is no shortage of highly skilled professional athletes who fit this profile. The element water is also associated with emotions, and the second chakra is also the center of sexual energy, so as we begin to release the bound energy of the second chakra, we need the grounding energy of the first chakra to stabilize us, and the wisdom of the heart chakra to make sure our actions are always expressions of the heart.

Place the block directly under the sacrum. I prefer a wooden block, as the feedback is clear and the block is stable. I find the foam blocks less stable unless you stack them, and then you lose the precision of the narrow edge. However, your body has to be safe and comfortable.

Feet are alive, continuing to ground the energy, even though the primary grounding is now through the block. Gently press the feet forward to create a rebound energy coming back towards your head. Channel it through the center of the pelvis. To do this, the pelvis is neither tucked, nor untucked, but floating in neutral, parallel to the floor. This pose is not about how much height you can create up to the ceiling, but about how accurately the energy flows through the core. The block gives you feed back for exactly where the sacrum is. As you press the feet, feel that action is coming from the pelvic bones reaching toward the knees, right and left evenly. This would be grounding if you were standing. Let the rebound move in the opposite direction through the sacrum so you feel the double action centered right where the hips and sacro-illiacs are located. Allow a space to emerge between the bones, without a sense of ‘stretching’ anything. Just energy flow, ground and space. Feel the diaphragm and heart expanding to receive the pelvic energy. Feel the fountain.

Now begin to grow a tail that extends out past the knees. Try a mammal tail and oscillate between flexion and extension, forward and back bending actions, just with the tail, but let the fluids of the whole body respond. The other spinal vertebrae may also move in a wave like motion. Let them feel the fluid motion, but try to not help by contracting any muscles. This is the beginning of differentiating the front and back body from the center and opening up the inner ‘volume’ of the body. Inhabiting this inner space is key in the somatic awakening process.

Then take the feet up without losing the tail so there is no ‘gripping in the lumbar sacral area. There will be some engagement of the deeper muscles as they align with the flow. Experiment with slowly moving up and down to involve different regions of the spine as the legs and sacrum adapt to the changing angles, and then land gently without losing the awareness.

Next, try a fish tail with side to side wave motion. Big fish! Let the whole ‘chakra line’ feel fluid, let all the vertebrae have a chance to feel the integrated flow. The fish tail action is the beginning of finding the lateral space that opens up through the second chakra as the two pelvic bones differentiate. That the right and left feet and legs can move independently is obvious. When the two pelvic bones can differentiate, at the pubic bones and at the sacro-illiacs, the second chakra can begin to breathe and the side to side or lateral differentiation and volume awakens.

With one leg extending upward you can explore this new awareness. Let the pelvic bones follow the legs, leaving the sacrum floating above the block. This can help release tension in the deep spinal muscles along the length of the spine. The other leg remains in hip extension and you can begin to sense space in the center plane of the torso with the help of the tail. The legs stay alive as the fluidity supports the expanding of diaphragm, intercostals, mesentery and mediastinum. The pelvic bones and spine are often ‘confused’, meaning they are stuck together perceptually. So as the fish body awakens, the spine becomes more and more free to feel like a fish because the legs, from pelvis to feet, float away. This is more obvious in the next stage.

It all comes down to water, collagen, physics and sacred geometry: Now, with legs and pelvis free of the spine, play in this ‘Continuum’ exploration of the inner world that is opening. The balance of water (compression) and collagen (tension) build the tensegrity field, where every fiber feels connected fluidly and elastically to every other fiber, whether muscle, bone, organ, cell or fascia. Let the body take on any shape it desires. If the arms want o float upwards, let them go with it. Drop habits and holding and be as free as an anemone. There is a spectrum of of learning and freedom of expression, of course. It builds over time as Hebb’s Axion deepens the integration. When you are ready to carry this into other poses, retain the inner balance of fluidity and stability. Stay grounded and sing and dance your heart away!